Remind Me to thank You

Remind Me to thank You

Remind Me to thank You

when I wake up every morning

and the Sun shines upon me every single time as if it were its last.

Remind Me to thank You

for the colorful flowers, their fragrance and the bees happily spreading their pollen.

Remind Me to thank You

for the rivers, the lakes, the crystal clear sources which so generously keep providing

us with the most refreshing water you could possibly dream of.

Remind Me to Thank You

for the majestic trees, their beautiful and gracious leaves which change color

according to the season and then fall down to nourish the earth.

Remind Me to thank You,

for the refreshing rain which purifies the air and feeds the land which provides us

with the most delicious food.

Remind Me to thank You

for the sky

its blue color and the whiteness of passing clouds

then at night

the colors turn into an orchestra of shining stars

and in the background

there is only a feeling that you are there, somewhere,

waiting for me to give you one last glance before shutting down the night.

Remind Me to thank You

My love

for my mistakes and yours

because while we were walking hand in hand

we did not realize where we were

and pushed and pulled each other afraid of losing one another

only because we forgot to look at the sky in wonder

one more time

to remind ourselves of our immortality.

Remind Me to thank You

for having given me the possibility to experience all this

in one lifetime

a gift from Heaven

which only now

that life is slipping away

I have started to savor.

Thank You!

 

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Alex Hunter – Lord of the Mind

Alex Hunter – Lord of the Mind

A game review from a woman’s point of view: 5/5

DEVELOPER :

ALAWAR

EPIC STAR


STORYLINE: 5/5

The plot is very intriguing because you don’t really understand where it’s going to lead you which creates constant interest in what’s going to happen next. A very well developed story indeed.

CUTSCENES: 5/5

Hold your underwear why watching the cutscenes in this game because they are absolutely perfect. There are a lot of 3d effects which will leave you with your mouth wide open!

VOICE OVERS: 5/5

The most convincing ever! I don’t really know how many actors where involved in the making of this game but they truly sound like award winning actors. I’m truly impressed.

MUSIC: 5/5

You must play this game with your headphones on because the music is outstanding.
Brilliantly executed by what seems an orchestra of people. It really helps a lot to build up momentum and for high tension scenes. Excellent!

SFX (Sound Effects): 5/5

Just like the music; absolutely perfect!

ARTISTIC ILLUSTRATIONS: 5/5

As you can imagine from the cutscenes, the illustrations in this game are also incredibly well rendered. Very high quality even for the small details. Outstanding work!

MINI GAMES: 5/5

Clear instructions for a few enjoyable minigames placed in key areas. I love being challenged and the level of difficulty was perfect for me, not too easy nor too difficult.

HIDDEN OBJECT: 5/5

Usually a list of items to be found and a few objects which needs to be interacted with before being able to collect them. I particularly like the fact that you don’t need to squint your eyes to find the objects because they are clearly visible just well hidden. However, I came across a few objects which were really impossible to spot. The layout is very clever so that you don’t risk to click in the wrong area by mistake (I did that in many other games).

PLAYABILITY: 5/5

Everything is very easy and intuitive, the Inventory is very simple but that’s exactly what you need. The Help button does help you if you get stuck though I strongly suggest you not to use it unless you are desperate – and I mean REALLY desperate.
There is also a very useful journal where all your vital notes and hints are written and a compass to help you transfer from an area to another though areas get unlocked gradually as you progress in the game. Occasionally, there is a little bit of running around but by using the map, you can teleport yourself where needed (active areas are marked by an exclamation mark). Standing ovation for this masterpiece.


Learn more about the criteria used for the review here:

What Makes a HOPA game great

If you want to download this game for free (no time limit), check the following links:

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My experience as a solo female vegan nomad minimalist

My experience as a solo female vegan nomad minimalist

Get rid of anxiety and depression at once: live your dream life!

There are many reasons why people want to give up a “common” lifestyle. The most popular is probably economical because more and more people are finding living a “Western” style lifestyle incredibly unbearable: too many expenses, lots of anxiety, depression and frustration. The solution? Change your lifestyle for good!

I remember before I kicked out my old lifestyle I had desperately been searching for an alternative but all the alternatives I found in Europe somehow didn’t fit me; there are eco-villages, communities of people living alternative lifestyles and so on. The problem is that I don’t want to live segregated somewhere or belong to a particular group of people: I just want to be me and I don’t like living with other people, I prefer living on my own!  What’s the point of abandoning an organized society to embrace another one?

What I really wanted was becoming self reliant, healthy and stress and anxiety free so I decided to do what I love the most: travelling around the world!

I’ve travelled as a backpacker for almost two years visiting and doing activities which I was always too busy to do in my “previous” life. I finally discovered things which I like and I don’t like doing. That’s easy – you may think but believe me it’s not! How many of you have attended ceremonies, business dinners or family reunions only because it’s part of the culture? I no longer want to waste my life doing boring stuff only because society expects me to, I just want to be me.

I’m 50 years old so I think that if you really want to change there are no excuses nor limitations, you just need the courage to do it. When I was travelling as a backpacker, I had all my belongings in a backpack (I don’t own anything else) so you really have to pay attention to what you are carrying with you because if  the backpack becomes too heavy, it may be a problem for your back.

I also got rid of a lot of things which we are socialized to believe indispensable; I keep my hair very short so it’s easy to keep it clean, I don’t use shampoo anymore nor any other beauty products: just a piece of soap. I don’t use a toothbrush either because it was causing my gum to bleed a lot so I now just brush with my index finger and only occasionally use natural herbal  toothpaste or powder (Asian). I don’t use toilet paper; here in Asia people always wash after their toilet business so I learned to do the same. When I was travelling, I carried a little towel with me so that I could dry myself afterwards. I’ve never used make up in my entire life; I tried it once when I was a teenager and it gave me such a bad irritation I promised myself never to use it again! I was still shaving my armpits and legs at the beginning of my journey but I’ve stopped. My legs are quite hairy now but it feels liberating not having to depend on other’s people judgement. Nobody judges men for being hairy so why should anyone feel the right to judge women? The list goes on until you are left with what you really need and what I really need to live is not much: good, fresh, nutritious food and a roof over my head, anything else is optional. Of course, I’m describing the life as a vegan nomad in Asia where there is no winter!

Though I have very little money,  paradoxically I don’t feel as anxious as I used to be when I was living in Europe; always fearing the worse. When you are not stressed, you see possibilities everywhere and you have enough energy to embark in new projects even at my age (there is no age limit, I’ve discovered). I was addicted to a few substances when I was younger: nicotine, caffeine, alcohol and for a specific period marihuana. When you live a life free of any type of addictions you feel unbelievably powerful and become more self confident as a result. Once you are completely clean and free you start understanding how bad we treat our bodies solely on the basis that is culturally acceptable (have a look at movies and TV series where people can’t seem to be able to relax without holding an alcoholic drink in their hand. In the past, the other hand used to hold a cigarette but today that’s no longer possible).

The first incredible personal discovery was that I had been neglecting myself for so long that I no longer recognized what my body needed. Resting was out of the question because we are raised to believe that if you rest you are wasting time and time is money. I had to stop working for a long time to take care of my health and at first I was feeling so guilty because the first thing people asked me was – what do you do for a living? – I don’t know why we feel so uncomfortable when in this life we are just spending without having an income. Of course, it’s scary but sometimes you just don’t have any alternatives. People tend to think that you are a billionaire if  you live like I do but the truth is: you need very little money to live this way and the therapy for all your ailments comes from the food you eat and that’s also affordable when you don’t have any addictions.

Nowadays, I live in Cambodia in one room apartment with a cooking corner and a bathroom and I’ve never been happier.  I have to stop travelling to regain my strength for a while. There is a nice garden outside and a place to hang the laundry.

The laundry is also another big issue for me. As a minimalist, I don’t have a lot of stuff but it bothers me using a washing machine knowing the amount of water and detergent that goes to waste and pollutes such a beautiful land. So I decided to buy a bucket, sodium bicarbonate (which is also good for your teeth) and that’s how I’m doing my laundry now.

Then came the second issue: the dishes. No matter which detergent you buy, most of them are sold in plastic containers and they heavily pollute the environment. When the label claims the product is eco-friendly, it normally costs an arm and a leg so I decided to make my own dish detergent with lemon juice, sodium bicarbonate and vinegar. As a vegan my dishes are pretty clean anyway but I live with two carnivores: a dog and a cat. They enjoy eating meat and fish and, as I totally don’t trust whatever is in pet food, I cook for them on a daily basis. It was very hard for me at first but now I’m ok with it, I use a different  pan and cutlery for them. I know some vegans may not agree with me but I will stop feeding them what they need once humanity has returned their share of the planet to them so they can go hunting again and drink the river water.

When you live with very little, everything becomes precious or better, you discover that everything IS precious and nothing and nobody should ever be taken for granted in this existence. I think this is the main issue with a materialistic life: your feelings get drowned by things and you no longer understand what it is that really makes you happy. As a minimalist, almost everything makes you happy because everything is a treat; the less you have the more you treasure it!

Have a fantastic journey dear fellow travellers!

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Love Knows No Hierarchy

Love Knows No Hierarchy

Open Your Heart and Listen to its Song.

Each one of us was born for a reason and though, in this illusionary society, we may have created hierarchy to function as a civilization, there is no such thing in the Spiritual Realm. People who walk around telling others they are enlightened and thus wanting to be worshiped as “gods” are too blinded by their own ego to be considered “enlightened”.

Enlightening is just a process equivalent to that of a seed. First you are underground and have to struggle to survive to reach the light. Breaking the dirt to finally free yourself from darkness and sprouting into a beautiful green plant, is also another stage of the process. Evolution is infinite just like our existence. A plant would never ask other seeds to be worshiped because it managed to free itself before other seeds. However, it is there, for others to see that the only way possible is the way up. Not down, not around, up and up.

It doesn’t matter how many times you fall, what matters the most is that you get up every single time and do your best with whatever you have at your disposal. Never ever lose faith. Remember that whatever stage you are at, it is just a temporary stage because

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER

We are all scared and insecure and at times even feel as if we had been abandoned by the rest of the Universe. Nobody gets abandoned. Never. No matter the circumstances and even if you feel unloving and undeserving or you are ashamed of the choices that you have made so far, keep looking up and fill your heart with hope and joy because this temporary suffering will not last forever.

Many are not aware of the big changes humanity has been going through in the past few years. Are you feeling more tired than usual? Hopeless? Do you feel as if you didn’t have a purpose in this existence? Does everything seem superficial to you?

LISTEN TO YOURSELF

FIND THE ANSWERS TO YOUR OWN QUESTIONS IN YOUR HEART

Immortality is not a condition of the carnal body, it is related to the soul. Feel your life and live each day as if it was your last and if you think you haven’t done a good job with yourself, then start changing right here and right now.

LEARN TO LOVE AND ACCEPT YOURSELF FOR WHAT YOU ARE

The big bubble is about to explode but not the way you expect it to, all secrets will be revealed and those who have concealed their hatred for so long will not be able to stand the powerful Light which is going to shine upon us all.

THERE IS NO PUNISHMENT

There is no such thing. Love is unconditional and it’s there for all of us. Give it and take what you need. Even the seed that buried itself deeper in the ground can and will find its way up. Never lose hope and never give up on yourself.

START LOVING EVERY ONE, WE ARE NOT HERE TO STAY

What can we do now? Start with small things. Take care of yourself first and then help others taking care of themselves if you can. Start sharing everything you have and remember to live each day as if it were your last – open your heart to everybody and everybody will open their heart to you.

The Source of Happiness is Within You.

Be Love itself!

 

I Love You

The Joy of Cooking

The Joy of Cooking

Take your health in your own hands

THE IMPORTANCE OF COOKING

Some people believe that cooking is a waste of time or an activity for bored homemakers. Wrong! Cooking is an act of self nourishing and caring which will save  your life. Why? Because, first of all you get to choose the ingredients you want to cook and if you love yourself enough, you’ll get the most natural, fresh and nutritious food available. Some people may argue that such food is expensive but it shouldn’t be. Locally grown vegetables, fruit and grains free of pesticides, fertilizers and other nasty chemicals should actually cost less, not more, exactly because they are grown without adding any additional cost. Go straight to those who grow food and if you can’t find any, grow your own. Your only investment should be a blender and a juicer if you really want to switch to a very healthy and nutritious diet. Drinking freshly made vegetable and fruit juices give your body the necessary vitamins and minerals for you to be healthy again.

THE PANDEMIC OF MALNUTRITION IN INDUSTRIALIZED COUNTRIES

The high percentage of obese people in a country is a very strong sign that there is something terribly wrong with our eating habits. Yes, we could just protest in the street and ask to shut down all the fast food chains which claim to sell food while in actual fact are only selling junk. Some people may say – yes but we love junk! Sure and you are responsible for what you put inside your body. However, we are exposed to junk food from a very young age and we get used to it. To be completely honest: we get addicted to it. Sugar and chemicals perfectly blended to ensure that our appetite for that particular item would never cease. That’s how you become a junk food junkie without even knowing it.

HOW CAN WE CLAIM OUR POWER BACK?

Simply by cooking. You can shout and scream that you want healthier food and blame the authority for that but in the end, you are solely responsible for what ends up in your stomach. Yes, we have created a culture of poison and junk but we are still in time to change. It’s never too late to change lifestyle. Just as when you quit smoking, drinking, medications or drugs, giving up junk food will cause your body to experience withdrawal symptoms and that’s ok because it’s part of the healing process. Once your body starts detoxifying and eliminating all the nasty substances which have been accumulating in our bodies for years, you will feel sick, exhausted, you may get pimples or skin rashes but that’s no going to last long before you start getting your energy and self esteem back.

EATING HEALTHILY DOESN’T MEAN EATING SALAD

Some people are convinced that eating well means eating a salad and a fruit. Wrong! There are billions of recipes available online about plant based nutrition. Today for instance, I’m cooking a fresh sauce made with potatoes, capsicums, garlic, chili, tomatoes, mushrooms and coriander to put on my plate of spaghetti. Yep, I can eat pasta. Once you start eating a healthy and nutritious diet you can also afford to have foods which are frowned upon by strict dieticians unless, of course, you have a particular disease (e.g.: diabetes) which will not allow you to have that particular item. Believe me, when you start cooking everything tastes delicious and your self esteem will boost up!

Here’s the final result of my spaghetti dish:

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I also added a bit of Japanese naturally brewed soy sauce, crashed peanuts and extra virgin olive oil. Yummy!

So what are you doing still here? Go get yourself some nice pots and start cooking right now!

The Rise of Collective Awareness

The Rise of Collective Awareness

Time to ascend, get ready!

 I see it everywhere, deforesting and building, deforesting and building. One day those people will kill themselves because they are investing all their time and energy in something which is not supposed to last.  I wish I could help them but they don’t want to hear anything except how to make more money. Don’t waste your time and energy trying to save others. They are just not ready, let them be!

Save Yourself

Every religion points out that greed and selfishness are counterproductive. However, religions are packed with metaphors and controversial messages  so in the end, who can you trust?

Trust Yourself

Each one of us is unique and has a particular purpose in this sphere of existence thus, the attempt to standardize humanity has only contributed to create more mental illnesses than ever. For every discomfort there is a name and that’s our way of dealing with the unknown. It is too scary to unravel the truth about ourselves but it’s time to do it.

Be Brave

In this new era of ascension, you will be asked to get rid of the things you no longer need. That means not just your material possessions but your unhealthy habits as well. Drinking, smoking, taking drugs and eating junk are the first habits we must get rid of to prepare ourselves for a healthier and happier life. People will make fun of you or think that you have gone completely insane: ignore them.

Don’t Worry About  What Other People Think

The only way to awaken your intuition and will power is to reset yourself completely. Forget who you are or better, who you think you are and start from zero just like a child would. Have no expectations, open your heart and be good and generous to all, including yourself.

Be Creative

Start doing the things which give you joy and abandon those which drain your energy. Don’t do anything against your will, no matter what. If you enjoy playing football then play football without feeling guilty. Draw, paint, write, make a vegetable garden, ride your bicycle, go for a walk, play with your pets… Do whatever gives you joy. Become joy itself.

Be Aware

Notice while you change  how your environment changes with you. Your environment is a reflection of yourself. Don’t have empty desires, just act upon your intuition immediately without postponing. If you think that you’d like to paint a fence then do it don’t just think about it. No thought is coincidental. If you catch yourself thinking negative thoughts just breathe, relax and try to understand what’s giving you pain.

The Development of Collective Consciousness

The more you attune with yourself and the more you can attune with others. You may think about music for a while and then meet a group of musician who will become your new friends. Trust your intuition and your intuition will trust you. Sometimes you may feel other’s people thoughts and that’s ok: it’s all part of the ascending process.

Be Ready to Be Born Again

Nothing religious about it. As your old self dies – this can be a very painful process for some as it may involve  relationship break ups, losing a job, being diagnosed with a terminally ill condition or becoming homeless -. It won’t last long but it’s a cathartic experience to understand who we really are and awake us from our illusionary world. No matter what your challenge is, deal with it. Don’t let depression or negativity take over because everything is going to be ok.

Failure Doesn’t Exist

It’s not easy to accomplish whatever it is that we want to accomplish so never let a disappointment ruin your life. Everything happens for a reason. Everything is a lesson and an opportunity for further growth.

Be Faithful

Don’t Get Angry Anymore

Detach yourself from the mass media and the news that normally portrait only disasters and negativity. That’s no longer your reality. Become the happiness you want to see and share it with others.

There Are no Others

This is difficult to grasp but each one of us is here to help others. People who you may think are mistreating you are just giving you an extra push to help you move forward. Don’t hate them and try to see the bigger picture. We are all connected!

Stay Focused

Whether you are peeling a tomato or writing your PhD thesis, put your attention on what you are doing and do not allow your thoughts to wonder. Every action is important. Do everything mindfully. Multitasking is a very destructive and dangerous activity.

Everything is a Miracle

See the beauty in flowers, dogs, cats, your spouse, your children, the sky, the colors, the delicious food. Never take anything for granted and be grateful that you have the extraordinary opportunity to experience all this: right here, right in front of your eyes.

Bless You All!

Falling in love at the wrong time in the wrong place

Falling in love at the wrong time in the wrong place

The crucifixion of romance

A couple of years ago I went to Myanmar to attend a meditation course in a secluded area in the forest, North East of Mandalay. The monastery was really beautiful and the monks and nuns there truly warm hearted.  I had been looking forward to this experience as I was desperately trying to find some answers to what had been happening to me. Ever since I started doing yoga and meditation, I began having clear visions of people and places I have never met in my life, sometimes I even heard conversations but not with my physical ears. I was desperate for answers. Who am I, what am I doing here? What’s happening to me?

I was given a very comfortable room with bathroom in an area where even electricity is considered a luxury. The food was excellent and suitable for my vegan requirements; I had coincidentally chosen the best monastery I could possibly find.

It took me at least a few days to get used to the meditation routine as I was also not feeling well because of a terrible cough.

After a few days, while I was just about to step into the meditation hall, I heard the echo of the voice of a friend telling me – you are going to meet the love of your life in Asia –. She said  that just before I left Italy in 2014 and I remember thinking that that was completely out of the question. I had had enough of relationships and the idea of having to deal with another human again made me sick.

I don’t really know how it happened but gradually, I started noticing the kindness of one of the nuns there. She was very beautiful as well but that was not the reason why  I fell in love with her. I fell in love with her mainly because of her kindness: she was the incarnation of Buddha’s qualities.

Day after day, my feelings for her grew stronger and stronger until the point where I couldn’t meditate anymore; all I could see was her. If I closed my eyes, there she was, right next to me. I also tried to find every excuse possible to go and see her, I desperately wanted to be with her, I wanted to stare at her beautiful warm eyes one more time and I just couldn’t get enough. As an Italian woman, I’m really hot blooded and I’m not very good at concealing my feelings, I’m pretty sure the entire monastery knew how I felt. I even caught myself planning about how to lure her into my room at night… That was enough, I thought, I had started to think like a thief, my attraction for her was unbearable I had to leave as soon as possible.

After leaving the monastery, I found the courage to write an email to her where I confessed my love for her with all the colorful details about my  sexual dreams and fantasies. I had never done that before in my life but somehow I felt I could be completely honest with her, I thought she could read my mind easily and I wasn’t telling anything new. But I was wrong: so wrong! She replied to me almost a month later by telling me that I fell in love with her Buddha’s qualities and that was it.

Yet my gadar (gay radar), was beeping loudly every single time we approached each other. I’m sure there was no mistake about what I felt but I didn’t consider that for a nun, falling in love with another woman meant giving up her vows and changing her lifestyle completely. As a passionate Latin woman, turning my reality upside down in the name of love is common routine but I still have no idea what it meant for her, apart that homosexuality is not easily accepted in religious premises though wildly practiced…

I left, my heart exploding with pain, my heartbeat pounding in my throat, I couldn’t speak I was so brokenhearted. I wanted to say something to her but I couldn’t utter a single word, I was afraid I was going to burst into tears at any moment so I left without even looking at her. I was staring at my feet. I boarded the boat by the river with two other guys whom I didn’t even know, yet the pain was so profound that I wanted to hug one of them and cry my heart out in his arms.  Why did I leave? It was unbearable to see you there and pretend that nothing was happening and it had been even more painful leaving you behind but I had no choice. That was the crucifixion of romance!

I have been thinking about you for all this time; I’ve been praying my Goddess not to let me suffer like this again. I thought it was a test to learn the meaning of attachment but I learned something else instead. We are human beings and human beings fall in love, it doesn’t matter how much you want to prevent yourself from falling in love; it’s bound to happen, it’s part of our experience as incarnated humans in this reality.

I respect those who decide to practice celibacy for a higher purpose but I do not believe that celibacy is a requirement for the evolution of the soul. Otherwise, we wouldn’t be here but incarnated somewhere else without genitals and the feeling of needing one other.

Of course, love can be platonic (sexless) but denying its existence is truly harmful. We are what we are, end of the story.

It’s been two years now and I’m still thinking about you. I found your FB account and I wrote you a message. You didn’t reply. I don’t know what to think but it’s obvious that you don’t want to hear from me ever again in your life and so be it. I wish you had told me the truth no matter how painful because being ignored is the worst thing you can do to a person.

By the way, the kitten in the photo is Pippi, he loves me unconditionally.

I wish you good luck or chok dee as they say in your country